My friend Libby has one of those nifty itouch phones
Until now I haven't been able to acess my blog but her phone will let me. It bass really touchy keyboard and I. Don't have a lot of patience so I wont be on here long lolq.
Sean n I have been getting along and we have arranged things so that we both get to spend time with mikayla. It seems to be working. I am seeing someone and I just learnedii that Sean is too. Its still weird sometimes but I am happy the way things are. And so is he so my decision was the right one I think. Now that I can ill get back to posting. And moose, exile, and Scott... ive lost your numbers he he email me with em pretty plz
Mwah

=) Sean came and hung out with me for a little while tonight, and brought his laptop (again). It's like the dealer selling the junkie crack. haha. I still don't wanna say too much so it's hard to say really anything I'm thinking lately. But I got my old job back when I got back to Louisville. Same pay but a little less hours. But still.. I got a job, yay. Found a great babysitter for Mik while i work, so it all seems to be working out right now.

This thing is low on battery so I'm not gonna use it much longer. Email me, I can check that from my phone.. lol

UPDATE

This isn't going to be detailed, I just felt I should update real quick.

We are all back from Florida. Most of you know this by now though. *things* didn't work out in certain areas but living there was awesome.

Those of you who have my number call me. Those that don't and would like to talk, I'll tell you more, OS knows how to get ahold of me (or he will after I call him tonight) so ask him, he canuse this as proof that he can give ya my number. =)


But yes I'm back in Louisville, and yes my ENTIRE life has changed. I'm not sure totally if it's a better change or a worse change or just what it is exactly but I'm working on figuring it all out.

Luv you all, sorry it's taken my so long to write again, and I have no internet acess, I lucked into it today... so I won't be updating too much til I get a laptop or something.

MWAH,

Robyn


(and to the ones who've I've recently discovered have read my blog and are REALLY pissed off at me about it now..... I'll tell you like I've told others before. This is my journal. I chose to allow it to be public but the same rules apply as with a typical diary that you keep under lock and key........ These are my thoughts when I'm sad, or pissed off, or what have you... I don't vocalize these thoughts to everyone as I feel them all the time because I know it'll hurt feelings sometimes... so i write it instead. If you find it, and chose to read it, then get hurt feelings oer it, then I'm sorry for that but at the same time. If you see something you know you're not going to like then chose to keep reading, you're trying to piss yourself off.)

so that being said.... i'll write again when I can... until then... LUVS

=)

Sittin here at the pool hehe. Usin a friends laptop. Haven't blogged in forever so I figured I better put up somethin to let everyone know things were going well. Sean got a job as a maintenance man, he starts Wednesday. I got a job at a year round haunted house, but I've been in the hospital twice since we got here and have only gotten to work three days so far. I keep hoping they don't fire me, but I don't think they can long as I have a doctors note. My kidneys have been giving me hell. I've got a stone that's just chillen up in my kidney and refuses to drop and pass, so it's been hurting me like crazy. Hopefully it'll stop soon though, I'm so sick of dealing with all that. You'd think I'd be used to it by now though. lol

Mikayla has learned to swim since we;ve been here, which is great cause Florida isn't a place you should be if you can't swim.. lol She's a regular fishy now though, I'm proud of her.

Can't occupy too much time on this lptop though, it's not very charged so I'ma go, just wanted to give a quick update since I hadn't blogged in a while.

Happy Mothers Day to everyone.. Loves.

MWAH!

TMI Tuesday

I used to participate in TMI Tuesday every week, as I used to participate in HNT every week also.. hehe But life, work and being a mommy sometimes halts how many things I can get done in a day hehe. But I figured you all were tired of reading about me moving lol so I'm doin TMI this week. =)






1. Have you ever sent or recieved a sext message? - yeah quite a few times. I used to send my hubby pix while he was at work too just to drive him nuts.. hehe


2. Have you ever made or recieved a booty call? - Nope, I've been married since I was 20, and was with the same person before Sean since I was 15, never had time for a booty call lol


3. Have you ever added or edited a word/entry to Wikipedia or Urban Dictionary or any other online reference? - Not exactly , but word has it HNT is in the Urban Dictionary now and Ive participated in that since it began. =)


4. At what age did you have your first consensual sexual experience? - I was 15 the first time I gave and received oral.... 19 before I ever had sex tho.


5. What has been the greatest age difference between you a consensual sexual partner? - a year between Sean and I.

Bonus (as in optional): Why do you blog? - my blog is the only person who really listens. ;)

2nd

On a brighter note, ALOT of shit got packed the past 2 days. =) I went and paid for the truck yesterday too so thats in line.. and when I walked out of the store and the lady said "see you next weekend" it hit me... hehe it IS next weekend... I'm MOVING Next Frikkin Weekend! lol

Got damned near ALL our laundry washed and sorted. Got a Mik bin, and a me and Sean bin and a sock and undie bin that goes with us.. lol the rest goes to storage. And it's amazing... We've only lived here 4 months, and I did all our laundry 4 months ago and sorted thru it all and got rid of a TON of stuff that didn't fit Mik anymore.... and now just a mere 4 months later, I have another TON of shit that doesnt fit mik anymore.. haha it's amazing how fast kids grow. lol I'll be able to give the chic I work(ed) with some more kid clothes tho for her little one before I leave so that makes me happy. I like helping her out.

I cleaned up the bathroom real good and got it mainly packed up... got the kitchen packed.. and we took everything off the walls and packed it today too, so it's starting to really look like we're moving now. =)

Went out with manda Deena and Tre the other day for lunch.. it was fun. Deenas all pregnant and cute and Tre is fun to hang out with, it was a nice day. =)

Had a date set up with my cousin and her family for Monday but they got a wild hair and decided to head to florida themselves for a mini vacation (can't say I blame em hehe) so that was cancelled... BUT, I see that this way.... If they will just supr of the moment go to Florida, then I KNOW they're gonna come visit at some point.. hehe And I extend the same *you can stay with us* offer for them that I offer to everyone I love BUT, with 4 kiddos, we might hafta *camp* out in the yard to have room.. lol but I'm game for that too.. bring it on.

I love you though Denielle. =) I love your family... You and Shannon are the two of my cousins that I'm closest too and have a genuine relationship with. I started talking to you more when mom was dieing, and although it was terrible circumstances, I'm glad of the outcome between you and I. =) I don't want to lose touch with you because I'm moving. You living states away didn't change anything. Same for you Shannon, you and I have always had a odd little bond hehe.. months can pass and it's like we didn't miss a beat... I can only imagine the shit we'd have gotten into if we'd lived closer together huh? hehe

I don't want any of my other family to read this like.. well what about me???? But the rest of you know that we aren't super close. I love all of my family (even the one I have a very strong opinion about) but we're not on the same wavelength on a lot of personal levels.... nothing bad, just different lives is all. =)

We've got 2 shows to go to before we leave and thinking about who all is gonna be at the both makes me wonder who I'm gonna miss most out of my friends. It also makes me curious as to who all will actually come visit us. I hope everyone does.. I hope we constantly have a visitor.. that would be awesome.. hehe

I keep wondering where I'll get a job at too. I'm going for something easy like waitress or cashier or something like that at first.. just to get something that makes money, then I'll focus on finding something alittle better. The goal is simply paycheck at this point tho.. hehe I'm really hoping that moving somewhere with more wildlife possibilities is going to help me get into an area I'll be happy with for a career. I'm eventually opening a shelter tho, it WILL happen one day.

I guess thats enough rattling for now.. lol 2 posts in one day is alot for me.. haha ;)

family

I know you're going to be surprised to hear this, but I have a few things I need to bitch about. ;)

*Seans mom is first on the list. Let me give you a little insight into the background first. Seans brother is in the Marines. he's stationed in North Carolina right now, lives there with his wife and daughter and dog. Sean is also a Marine, but was discharged in 2000. Billy, Seans brother, has always tried to model his life around what big brother Sean did.... hence the whole Marine thing.... and since the day Billy joined up, he's tried to get out. I'm not gonna get into why or how but he's tried numerous times to get out now, once before he even graduated Boot.

Well, now he's being deployed in August to iraq. He managed to dodge being deployed until now.

Well, when Sean was in, his family never did anything to recognize or say they were proud of him... No parties, no gatherings, no *my sons a marine* bumper stickers and tshirts, no trips to visit him, none of that shit... BUT, every tiny acheivement Billy gets and a party ensues....

When he joined, his girlfriend was all distraught (as expected, she was still in high school) so we basically let her move in with us. Spent all the time we could with her, and she went with us when he graduated for 9 days to South Carolina to be with him and bring him back home for his 10 day. Then he graduates, she moves to North Carolina with him, and they barely speak to us anymore.

Anytime they come to visit *home* they never make it a point to come see us. But they'll call. Seans mom will make dinner and we'll get an invite, and we go.... to see them...... but thats the ONLY time we get to see them. Sean got Billy involved as a DJ on wildliferadio this past year, and Billy was super excited about it... and they started talking more thru like yahoo and whatnot and it made Sean happy... Billy said he wanted to come over and do ashow with Sean together while he was in town.... then he gets in town.. and they NOT ONCE come over.. BUT, he manages to make it out to Fenders house for a show.

So then today... Seans mom picks Mikayla up cause she's keeping her tonight for us and asks us if we're planning to go to North Carolina in August b4 Billy is deployed. And we said no. August is Mikaylas birthmonth and mine, and we'll both have new jobs, and all that and if we could afford to we would but not likely.... and she gave us the stank eye....

Sean was deployed too. lol He served in Iraq... none of his family gave a shit..none of them seen him off..... it's the double standard and it really hurts seans feelings. I hate it.

His mom wasn't supportive of Sean, she didn't go out of her way to show her pride in him, she doesn't do it now to him. She's never ONCE told him she was proud of anything he's done. Our daughter is a genius, and she's beautiful... and Linda loves her sure, but she never acts like she's proud of her gradndaughter ya know.... she never shows emotion over anything involving sean.

Wanna know something fucked up? I've been with Sean 10 years now... in this 10 years I've watched my mom be eaten alive and die from cancer, I've had a kid, i've lost a kid, and we've had many other emotional things happen to us... ONLY time i've ever seen linda cry was the day I was baptised. To me thats fucked up. She did't cry at our wedding, she didn't cry when her first grandkid was born, but let her sons fiance get dipped into a pool of water and the waterworks flow....

I just don't like how we are expected to be all tight knit and such when we are treated like the bottom rung of the ladder. I'm sick of putting up with it, ad I'm sick of seeing how it makes Sean feel. I'm not sure if any of his family reads this or not, and if you do and get pissed I'm sorry but I'm so tired of seeing him feel like this.

This is why we came up with our own definition of family. We know what it is to be family, and those that we let in know what it is too... and if you're questioning what I'm talking about, then chances are, you're not part of it.

12

We have a 3rd kitty. =) Ms. Whiskers. She's Nicks cat. I wanted him to bring her over before we move so my cats can get used to her before we move them all. Had to pretty much break his arm to get him to finally get her over here but she's here now. =)

She's really sweet. I think she's about 5 years old like mine are and she's spayed. She isn't declawed like my two are tho so hopefully there aren't any fights. So far, a lot of hissing and growling but no actual fighting. I hope they continue to not fight. She really doesn't have the attitude either.. lol it's my two that are being the assholes. but it's a territory thing, I knew it would happen. They'll get over it. lol

I talked to the principal at the school Mik is transferring to today also. Found out everything I have to do to get her in school in Florida. Basically I just have to have the forms I already have transferred thru the Florida health dept into official Florida documents and then turn them in. She does have to have a physical from a florida physician tho, so I'll have to get that taken care of once we get there.
I don't have to rush quite like I thought I would tho because we're moving there the week of their spring break. Spring break here starts this coming Monday and is over the 3rd of April, and Florida school's start spring break on the 6th.. lol so she gets spring break twice this year.. lucky kid.. haha I explained to the principal about the situation where she's in a kindergarten first grade class now so they are going to aptitude test her before deciding where to place her also.

My kitty's are up to date on their rabies vacceines, which is Floridas only pet requirement, and I'm gonna flea treat them the day we leave. I think I've decided to get a larger crate and put Boots and Zoe together in one and then position them in the van so that they face Whiskers cage and can see each other the whole trip, that way they won't be all pissed off and fighting again when we get there. I bought them all collars today too... I know none of them will like being on a leash but when we stop and stretch ourselves I can at least let them out of their cages for a few mintues each on a leash. lol this should be fun. I guess I'm just tossing the mice in their travel cases too... I'm not real real concerned with the mice.

12 more days!

We also decided to skip Disney World for now and go to Universal instead. Florida residents can get annual passes for 99 a person... Disney was gonna cost us 150 a person for 1 day! lol so we're getting annual passes to Universal instead. =) That way we can go all year long. We'll hit Disney eventually... after all we *will* live there. lol