I'm scared he's going to disappear

I Lost my dad to suicide in 93. I've had 2 very close friends try.. and quite a few not so close friends try... but I have this feeling that one day soon I'm going to get a phone call that my best friend is no longer alive.

I know him better than he knows himself... better than most anyone knows him.. and some of the things he's been doing lately is like teetering on that edge ya know...

I don't think my mind could handle losing someone else.. specially someone that close to me.

I'm not sure how I even feel right now...

See I noticed these cuts on his arm today... and in asking he told me he also cut his chest some too... First time I've ever known him to do this.....

And oh it makes me so mad....



Idk anymore... i've always been able to help my friends in spots like this but I cant this time... makes me feel so helpless... and scared...

You cant force an adult to do anything.. specially if your not related to them.. if your a relative you have options to force help on someone... but this way all i can do is say it... and that does absolutly no good.

I've said everything I can think to say to make him realize that he makes things out to be much worse than they are.. loads of people are in way worse situations.... a little dedication could fix it.. BUT, i've also seen him when life was going good for him and he still has this inner depression that attacks him frequently....

Sigh... I cant help.... and I hate that feeling.... and if I wake up one morning to that phone call I'm not sure how I'd ever be able to handle it...







On another note, the haunted houses open tomorrow... Industrial Nightmare is on 8th and Ohio in Jeffersonville Indiana... admission is 18-27 dollars depending on the wings you'd like to go through.... and I'm the ticket seller girl so if you come you'll 100% see me. =) make sure and tell me hi. =)
And Haunted Hotel is at 4th and heywood in Louisville, right by the Downs. Admission is like 17 there I think... it's under 20. Which is a deal, most all the others around town are 20 at least per person....
They are both well worth the money you spend. =) So come see me and let the best houses in town scare the shit out of you this season. =)

xoxo