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I don't think I ever write about anything happy.. lol and I don't really have anything to bitch about exactly but I'm not in the greatest mood today.

At work, I work with a group of like 10 people, we are all around the same age and we all work in the haunted houses every year. And every one of us is friends with half a million other people who work in the houses too... and this person doesn't like this person, and that person doesn't like this person.. and so on and so on and you get it I'm sure.... so all day long is full of "don't tell so and so I told you this"...and.. "guess what she said about you".. and shit like that... BUT, I'm a favorite for people to talk about. So I hear all kinds of shit all day long from every direction.. lol cause everyone that works with me likes me.....because if I like you and you get to know me, generally.. you DO like me... I'm pretty likeable i think.. but alot of people have this problem....

They either A. Want to fuck Sean, B.Want to fuck me, or C. Heard all kinds of bad shit about me while we were seperated and now they just don't like me cause they think I'm this horrible evil person who just totally did Sean wrong.. AND, some of them fall into two or all the categories. So theres all kinds of shit that goes around about me everyday.. and I learn more every day too..

It gets really old. When I first started back at Industrial, I was gonna just not talk to anyone and keep to myself but one person I really didn't expect to contact me did, and I wrote her back.. well I mentioned talking to her to the chic I work with and she told me to be careful of that person, that she couldn't be trusted.. and I responded with... No one i know can be trusted... and she looked all hurt and said.. I can...... So I decided.. fuck it.. what have i got to lose and have started talking to her quite a bit.. and I love her, I always have... but she was one who Sean ran to when we got back from Fl.. and it's not that she wouldn't talk to me, but I never felt like I could go to her.. Sean knew her a lot better than i did and the stories that (her) and others have told me that he had told people about me... it's no wonder they all hate me... but I assumed he'd done that and didn't call those people just because I didn't want to hear their opinions on the things they'd heard i did.... did you follow that lol

I know none of this makes much sense to anyone but me... but it felt better to write it down..

And my hubby kinda aggravated me today too... won't go into detail on that one but yeah for asecond there his attitude really got me.. he apologized later for his attitude but it still got me.. lol

Theres still a couple things i can't talk about anywhere... at all.... I can't tell this person because I don't want them to tell this person, and I cant tell this person because it involves that other person and it's not something they could pretend they didnt hear, and i cant tell this person because it just makes things look weird, and i cant tell this person because they wouldnt really care... lol and i cant write it here because theres only so much I want 2 certain people to know about me and sean.
I have like 3 other stories I wanna tell but I'ma lay down and try to get sleepy I think.. I've already been on here forever... lol

I might be back if I don't sleep. If not, Sweet Dreams all. xoxo