Real?

I wasn't real sure I should blog about this. I'm not sure if any of the involved parties read my blog or not, and don't really wanna hear all about this again... lol But it's got me kinda aggravated this morning so I wanted to talk about it somewhere.

You all know that we manage bands here in Louisville. Right now, Poetry Of The Dead is the only one we manage. Well, one of the members of that band and I can't seem to see eye to eye so I had decided that I was going to quit managing them and just let Sean handle them instead.

My main complaint was that I wasn't getting any recognition from them for what I did for them. And not that I want a medal or anything like that, I'd just like it when someone asks, Who helped you all with that???? It'd be great to hear my name mentioned, but it never is. Well, me and said person had a talk about all this and decided he'd try harder for me and I wouldn't go anywhere just yet. And I thought everything was fine.

Well yesterday I was talking to Sean about it and he told me that at a show a couple weeks ago a remark was made like "No offense to Robyn but Joker and Kim are the management team"..... now see, I was told that in no way was there ever any remarks like this made....... but my hubby isn't going to make shit up. So now my feelings are hurt all over again.

Then, Sean tells me last night that something else has been said. Except this time, Russ was the one who was said to have said it. And I know that's not true.

It was said that the reason I'm "branching out" and wanting to do band work on my own is because I'm trying to show Sean up... to prove that I can do as good of a job or better than he can without his help. I'll explain why this isn't true in a second but first I want to say this....

Why do people sit around their homes.... and then can't find anything better to do than chat about my life? Like, am I really that interesting to you all? Can you not find anything better to do? Would you like it if every other conversation I had involved you and then I talked shit about you and then called you my friend when you were around me? No, you'd probably be a little ticked off.

Now, back to my branching out thing....

I do the majority of the work as is.... so I know I can do it by myself too... BUT, my goal is not to be better than anyone, I don't want to show up anyone, especially my husband. We are equal, we are a team and just because I say ME when I talk about the new bands doesn't mean I don't need Seans help with even them from time to time.

I thought this was over with until Sean tells me that it was said that Russ was talking about me bad... and that hurts me because Russ is one of my best friends. I'm closer to him than anyone else besides Amanda and Candace. Yes. Russell, Candace and Manda are my best friends. Just them 3. I love all my friends (who deserve it) but them 3 are my bestest ones. And I know Russ didn't say that shit. I asked him, and he would have told me.

So, short and skinny of everything is this:

I'm so sick of people one day saying they are your friends, then the next day trying to stir up something. I have enough drama in my life without a bunch of kiddy bullshit being tossed in there too.

Christmas is right around the corner.... anyone think that maybe... just maybe this might be a hard time of the year for me? How about... let's be nice to Robyn for a change.... that's what real friends would do.