This will probably be one of the most honest posts i've ever made before.

I'm going to talk about things that I generally don't talk to anyone about minus a few select people.


Sean and I have had a few issues lately. I won't go into specifics on all that but the things that have happened has had me thinking about everything. And I've come to a realization.

I thought about leaving Sean. I really did. I sat down and figured out how I could afford it, what I could pay in bills, etc. And even though I didn't have it figured out exactly, I was still thinking about it.

But then it came to me. This is the first problem him and I have ever had. The first. I mean, yea we've had a silly argument or two in the past but we basically get along great. The biggest issue we ever had was him lieing to me about drinking, but we got that under control years ago. But this..... this broke my heart. it really did. And again, I'm not gonna say what happened exactly but it really hurt me. But this is the first major problem we've ever had.

I sat and thought about my life. I can't imagine Sean not in it. I lov ehim more than anything besides my daughter... there's just no one like him.. And I don't think I'd ever find a man I'd be this comfortable around ever again..