I'm a good parent damn it!

Soooo..... My drama just never stops.

Found out today that my (evil) grandma has told people that my hubby has hit my daughter before....

Nothing could be further from the truth... Manda can vouch for me here..... There is nothing in this world that means more to Sean that our little girl... he'd cut his own hand off before he'd ever hit her, I'm not sure she's even ever had a spanking in her entire life.

I just don't understand why she's doing this to me.... have I not been through enough bullshit in my time? Why threaten my family?

My daughter is the most beautiful, smart, happy, friendly, level headed kid I've ever met... compare her to any other kid her age and she's smarter than almost all of them... she's taller than all of them, she talks better, she can converse like an adult, she is just remarkable in my opinion...... and she's obviously... let me repeat that.... OBVIOUSLY not abused in any way what so ever!

I have decided I'm going into "protective custody" of sorts. I'm not going to say where we're going, or when we're going, but we are going. We are moving from this apt., we are changing our number and it will be unlisted, and I'm NEVER going to speak to her again. That may sound harsh to those who aren't real familiar with the situation, but my WHOLE life Ive dealt with this grandmother... she's been a bitch from day one, she's threatened to take me from my mom before, she's called me a whore, she's called me a liar, she's just mean. And up to this point, I've just overlooked it. I'll get mad and fight with her and we won't talk for a month or so, then out of the blue she'll call like nothing ever happened..... and I'll act like nothing happened. Just to keep peace in my family. But no more. She pushed me too far this time.

She called me numerous times at work yesterday, and many more times at home because she wanted to come pick up Mikayla.. she wouldn't tell me where she wanted to take her, and that freaked me out.. She's the kind of lady who'd take her and never bring her back home.... so I just didn't answer the phone. Then this morning I answer... and immediatly she starts in on me...

well mik has told me that she sometimes fixes her own breakfast.... that's just not right robyn... she's too little to be doing that..

BULLSHIT. She's 5 years old... there is nothing wrong with her pouring herself a bowl of cereal. I read ina magazine when she was tiny, it was a suggestion from a parent because her 2 year old always wanted to pour her own drinks... so she came up with an idea to minimize messes. Open your dishwasher door, and leave it open and down, let your child put their cup on the door and pour their drink that way... it's at their level and if they spill, all you have to do is close the door and the mess is inside the dishwasher... turn it on and viola.. mess gone. I thought it was a super idea and taught it to Mikayla... and ever since, she's enjoyed the independance of making her self something to drink when she wants it.... this is also how she'll fix her cereal in the morning.

It's not like I'm laying in bed sleeping and making her fend for herself or anything... I'm up, and offer to help but she wants to do it... and I see NOTHING wrong with letting her do it herself.. To me, there is no age limit as long as your child can do something safely, then let them do it if they want to try... sure there's messes sometimes, but that's a part of learning right?

In my eyes, I'm a great mom. Seans a great dad. We play with her, we teach her, we talk to her, and she loves us both very much. And to have someone who raised two men.. one who killed themself, and one who molested 2 girls come in and tell me I'm a bad parent.... oh gawd it makes my blood boil. How the hell can you call me out when both your sons are (were) mental? One of them was my dad, and for the most part he was a good person, but he also fought with her constantly..... she's never let anyone have any peace. (he's the one who killed himself).

But anyway, I talked this over with Sean and we decided the best way to "write her off" was to "disappear". If she doesn't know where I moved, or what my new number is, then she can't bother me anymore... It hurts me in a way because she is my grandma and I'm kinda short on family, but it's just not worth the greif. I remember countless times crying because of something she said or did to me, and I really don't want Mikayla to have to deal with that either. It's starting to affect me and seans relationship too... and that just can't happen. I agree with him, and he's my world, so this is what we have to do.

I feel like maybe I'm running from this problem instead of trying to fix it, but it's not something that can be fixed. she's not a person you can reason with, and theres no point in trying anymore.

I have one more month here because I've already paid my rent, but I will be out of here just as soon as my new place becomes available. Anyone who wants my new address or new number just email me and I'll gladly give it to you.. and I will have internet still... cause I can't live without it.. so I'll keep you all updated.

Like I said, it's not happening just yet, but it will happen by next month. I have to do what I have to do to keep my family safe and happy. =)