I found it, I found the cure.

Talked to mym om today, and she informed me that she woke up this morning and found a small patch of hair on her pillow. =( Guess the chemo is starting to get to her, she's also had a few "accidents" since her last treatment, not sure if chemo causes you to lose control of your bowels or what. That sucks. Up until now, she's just had minor side effects, they seem ot be getting worse now though, I guess because she's had like 3 treatments now and the more of that medicine you put in you, the worse the side effects get or something. My cousin Shannon offered to help me find her a nice wig if it came to that, so it looks like we may need to start shopping around soon.
I hope beyond hope that the chemo works. I can't even imagine what losing my mom would do to my world. I know I've got Sean and Mikayla to keep me happy, and they do but I still know I'm not ready to deal with losing my mom yet. Lost my dad about 12 years ago, and it took me a good year or two to fully get over that. I was just a kid when my dad died though, and it wasn't something naturl that killed him, he killed himself so that makes it a little tougher to understand. So maybe losing someone for natural causes makes it easier, I dunno. Although, in my book, cancer isn't a natural cause. It's a terrible disease that has been made worse by pollutants in the air and additives in everything we use, but it's not really that easy to stay away from all those things.
*sigh*
Anywho, was supposed to have a yardsale this morning at my grandmas, but backed out. Sean ended up having to work today and I would have had to go to my grandmas at like 5 in the morning, and it's a friggin Saturday, Robyn doesn't wake up at 5 on Saturdays. =) So we're gonna do it tomorrow morning instead. Hopefully we make quite abit of money off it. Me and Sean went to wal-mart last night, and they already have their halloween stuff out.... YAY! I love haloween, it's my all time favorite holiday! lol, we already picked out about 50 bucks worth of shit we're gonna get just at wal-mart, that doesn't even count the actual haloween stores that'l make a killing off us. lol we prolly spent a hundred bucks easy last year on shit, and thats on top of the massive amounts of shit we already had, and I'm sure we'll spend that this year too. Seans already started collecting wood and such to build a coffin for our yard. We're gonna make it Mark sized cause he's a big guy and could really scare the shit out of the kids hehe. Is that bad? hehe we get a kickout of scaring kids, but isn't that what All Hollows Eve is really all about? =) At my grandmas house, my cousin used to use a zipwire and swing out of her tree at kids as they'd walk up the sidewalk..... muhahahaha! =)
I feel kinda torn every year though because I love taking Mikayla trick or treating but at the same time I love to sit at home and scare people and hand out candy. So me and Sean usually work in shifts. I'll take her out for a little bit and he'll sit at home with everyone and give out candy, and then he'll take her out and I'll sit at home. =) Worked pretty good last year but Mik hasn't got to the point where she wants to hit up every single house in the neighborhood yet. I remember being young and living in our trailer park in Fairdale and we'd get a group of friends together and hit every house, then start all over again sowe'd end up with like 9 bags by the night was over, lol. Damned Hoodlums hehe. And we were too, we were the neighborhood assholes for quite a while. hehe I remember doing all kinds of badshit in that poor trailer park. Fun times. Well, guess I better go do something about my kitchen since noone else is going too. Theres prolly shit growing.... maybe a cure for cancer somewhere. ;)