My mommas b-day plans

When my mom was dieing, she had 3 friends who helped out more than anyone else. Jan, Lindy and Cathy. I've known Cathy my whole life but it was only during this time that I got to get to know Jan and Lindy. And I'm so glad that i did. =)

I've always said that my friends like Manda and Deena have aplace with me that is special compared to my newer friends.... simply because they knew my parents. They can relate to the stories I have of my dad or my mom, and that's special to me. And Jan and Lindy and Cathy too all can tell me stories about my mom from her teen years that I'd never get to know without people like them. =)

Anyway, 2 days ago Jan calls me. She wants to get together and celebrate my moms birthday (Dec. 16th) She's going to come pick me up and Her, I, Lindy and Cathy are all going to Jans for lunch and birthday cake, and then afterward we're going to make scrapbooks about my mom.

It all sounds a little sad to me, but at the same time it sounds really nice. I was wondering what I was going to do on moms b-day and how it was going to affect me this year so it's awesome that I have plans now.

I was telling Manda just yesterday that I can't even remember Christmas last year. I've sat and tried to recall anything about it but I can't. I guess I just had so many emotions going on that my mind blocked it out. I know mom dieing had a profound impact on me and my life but I've tried really hard to not let it get me depressed.

It's just a nice feeling to know that other people are still thinking about her as much as I am... and I'm really looking forward to this get together now. =)