My momma

Well, my mom died earlier this evening. Her nurses had told us this afternoon that if anyone needed to say goodbye to her, now was the time to do it. So everyone had a chance to let her know she was loved. But she knew that anyway. =)

My momma was such a special lady. She did so much for so many. I couldn't even tell you how many of my friends considered her to be their second momma. Everyone that met her loved her. She just had such a lively spirit about her. We're all going to miss out without her around.

I'm doing alright. I say that and it's almost 2 am and I'm sitting here not being able to sleep..... but for the most part, I'm ok. I need to cry some.... it helps to release the bad energy. I know she's in a better place. She's where we all hope to be someday, and I know she'll be waiting patiently for me when I'm 150 years old. I will see her again, this I know.

Mikayla was already asleep when I found out so I haven't told her yet. I hope she's not too upset, that's going to kill me worse than any of this other stuff.

I don't really want to talk a whole lot right now though... I'll say more later. But thanks to everyone who's been there for me.... you know who you are. =)

I wrote this poem about a month ago. I tried to make it sound like it was coming from her, and it's going to be the poem inside her memorial cards.

Please don't grieve or think me dead.
Celebrate my life instead.
Unburden your heart and dry your eyes
We talked and laughed... no need for good-byes.
I did not leave you, I'm all around
in the wind, and trees, the sky and ground.
No more shall I suffer, I'm no longer in pain
Lifes problems no longer pelt me like rain.
I have family and friends here and now I can see
The wonderful life God gave to me.
I don't want you to mourn, please try not to be sad
Cherish the years and the fun times we've had.
I'm with you forever, in your heart I will stay
Should you need to talk ever, I'm a prayer away.