Another sleepless night

Well, it's after 1 and I'm tired as the fuck.... yet can't sleep.... again. My mind wanders something terrible at nighttime. I won't think about something all day, then I lay down to sleep and POW there it is. I don't get it.

Took mom to the doctor today, he just reinforced what we already knew... chemo won't help, radiation won't help, there are no available drugs that would help......... He did explain to us today what her final days will be like, don't much feel like explaining it right now though. They sent in a refferal to Hospice today as well. *sigh*

On to other news... hung out with Julie all day today. She was babysitting her 3 year old neice so Mik played with her all day. We went to the park in hopes of playing in the fountain but they had it turned off for some reason. So we went to Julies and hung out instead. Had fun.

Had an interesting chat with Shannon (Seans sister) today. She instant messaged me talking about how sad she was that Billy was leaving. She asked me why everyone left her out of activities... I told her that that was a subject best discussed in person but she wanted to know.... so I told her. I left out a lot of my feelings about the things she does because thats kinda irrevelant but I told her that we can't take her constant bitchyness. I told her that she is all smiles and laughs when shes with her firneds or whatever then me or sean walk into the room and she just turns into a sourpuss, so I explained to her that we just assumed it was a problem with us so we try to keep our distance to make her happy. She said she was sorry for acting like that and thats not how she wants to portray herself. I really think aliens have visited her or something lately and are inhabiting her body cuz she's NEVER this understanding about anything... it's kinda weird.

I may have talked about moms friend Sue before. Well, Sue has a dog named Popcorn. Just recently I had to rush her and Popcorn to the vet and she was diagnosed with congestive heart failure. Popcorn should have really been put to sleep then but Sue couldn't do it... Anyway, Popcorn died today.

Last night, Sean made me some pancakes..... well something was on the burner and it caught fire... it was just a little fire and we quickly put it out... no big deal.... well not even a full minute later, 2 firetrucks come roaring down our street... Sean flips out.. he's all looking out the windows and shit.... "Surely they couldn't be coming here" we both said.. it was really strange. Well, a police car pulls into out apt. complex, parks and gets out of the car and starts shining his flashlight on the doors... Lol so we're both like... should we go say something??? Well they went to the lad next door to moms... she's pregnant and was in labor... it was really funny though if you were there... Baby was born today and no she dind't name him Damien.

I completed my first story for Louisville NiteLife Magazine today too. This was my first official story, and they sent me to Bardstown, Ky. to do an overall review of the town and all it's features for tourists. When I turned it in with my pics today they told me that they loved it, and that I did a fantastic job. I'm so proud. =) yay.

I'm gonna lay on the couch now... try to go to sleep....

Before I go though, not sure if you even read my blog anymore but if you do....
I love you Candace! You're a terrific friend, just wanted you and everyone else to know. =) Don't fret.