it's hard to hold it all in.. lol

Down to 23 days til we move now. =) 25 til I go to Disney world.. lol Next Friday is my last day at work... I'm so ready.

Was supposed to be off today, but went in for a whole hour to cover Nick so he could get some shit done before 3... a whole hour of work.. haha was kinda weird.

I told grandma two days ago that we were moving... and she asked me for 1200 dollars b4 I left. I told her I'd see what I could give her from my taxes and I'll end up giving it all to her I'm sure but it kinda pisses me off. Brian lived here almost 3 years, absolutly trashed the place and she never charged him a dime. I've lived here 3 months, kept it nice and clean, helped her and harold out anytime they need it, AND was the one who cleaned Brians mess b4 I moved in and I owe her 1200 dollars. I'm the one who restored the nice *smell* down here too that everyone bitched about for so long. Such is life I guess. yay double standards. I'd offered to pay an extra month of her insight bill for her since I was moving out but I'm not paying the extra month now that I owe her that much money.. sorry.

Got all my boxes now.. ready to start packing but I'm waiting til last minute this time because since Brian lived down here, the basement is flooded with roaches... (he had 5 dogs that shit anywhere they wanted to) and i'm not interested in taking those little creatures with me. I deal with them living here but they like to harbor in cardboard boxes so I'm gonna leave my boxes outside til we leave so they can't get in them... lol

I'm so excited to quit my job tho.. lol it drives me crazy working there.. I've managed 50 hours the past 3 weeks so my paychecks have been nice. And my taxes were mailed out today so I should have those anyday now too. yaaaay. Everythings coming together. It's exciting. I can't wait to leave this state.

Since mom died I've wanted to leave... it just doesn't feel like home without her. So I'm gonna go somewhere that she never helped make home for me so that I don't have those memories haunting me. That might not make sense to you all but it's hard to type... Here in Louisville, here at grandmas, here n this neighborhood, EVERYTHING reminds me of mom. And not that I don't like those memories because I cherish them but it makes it really hard sometimes. So maybe a change of scenery will help me out.

I'm looking forward to all the things people keep telling me that I'm not going to like. For instance, I'm looking forward to not knowing many people, I'm looking forward to meeting new people.. I'm looking forward to not knowing my way around, and having to learn a new place.. I'm looking forward to the HOT, I'm looking forward to the bugs, I'm looking forward to the change in economy, I can't wait to get a new job and a new place.... I'm excited to see how the cats are going to react, I'm nervous about the mice tho... When we moved to arkansas, we took out 3 gerbils with us, and they died on the ride there... I'm hoping to have better luck with the mice.. lol The gerbils had a heatstroke, I know now to monitor the temp in the mice cage throughout the ride.

I'm excited to see Miks face on her first day at a new school, I can't wait to hear about her meeting new kids.. I'm hoping to get her into a smaller school so she gets more hands on teaching.. I'm looking forward to her actually being in kindergarten instead of having to keep up with a first grade class when she's supposed to be a kindergartener. I can't wait to take her to the beach again, and Disney World...

I think this is going to be a great thing for us. I'm gonna miss Kroger cuz I'm addicted to Big K.. lol I'm gonna miss our friends here, but they can always visit and we'll visit them.. I'm gonna miss walking upstairs to see my gma, I'm gonna miss knowing ppl who can fix my car, or help me with whatever I need, but I'll find that down there too. I'm a friendly person, never had a problem making friends.

So anyone who reads my blog that lives near Orlando, let me know and we'll finally get to meet. hehe ;)

I'm happy about this, I wish everyone else could be happy for me too. =)