Should i cry?

I've had a weird couple of days. I've got all these emotions going on.. and a bunch of things I want to talk about.

I'm not a religious person by any means. I believe in God, I believe there is a supreme being over my life. I believe there are angels and ghosts and bad and good... I believe a lot of things. Problem is.. they don't all tie together to form one cute little "religion". So I don't go to church. And this probably drops me a level in some peoples eyes. *shrug*

Someone made a comment to me today. "God doesn't like people that bash their family" This upset me. My reply to this was simply... "Not being able to get along with my family isn't going to pave my way to hell" And it's not. There could possibly be a few stepping stones I've thrown onto that path in my lifetime, but the way I feel in this subject is hardly one of them. Am I wrong in this?

The next thing on my list is that I've recently been back in touch with a past friend of ours. We'd had a "falling out" and wasn't really speaking much anymore. Things have been ironed out though and I'm really glad for that. Didn't really realize I'd missed em so much.. lol So yay for that.

Went and put up grandmas christmas tree today and it's the most pitiful thing.. lol The majority of the tree looks great, but the top was broken and now it's kinda short and well... pitiful looking.. lol So I fluff it and whatever to make it look the best I could.. go to get the lights...... NO lights... lol so now I gotta go tomorrow after her doctors appt. and get some lights so we can finish up the tree. =)

Realized today that when things happen, I have no one I can call at anytime and have them agree with me and talk. =( I miss my momma. It's kinda been bugging me the past few days. I'm alright though, minus this shakey shit.. I don't know why but anytime I get upset, my whole body shakes.... makes it hard to type.

Someone said to me today "Robyn, Sean and you are angels. You were put on this earth to help people. Because of this gift, pain comes your way more than most but you're capable of getting through it."

I think they are right. I've never thought of it that way before, but it makes sense. Sean and me have been together for 6 years now. In that 6 years.. I can count at least 5 people we've "taken under our wing" and supported and helped to fix their lives....(well we *tried* to help a few of em... they just weren't motivated enough). I've never looked at our friendships with them like that but they were. Mary and Richard.... Mary lived with us for I don't even remember how long while he was in jail for beating the crap outta her.... and she stayed with him and we helped her get by till he go tout. Steve.... oh steve steve... lol I don't even wanna get into steve. We've had many roomates..... I could go on and on... lol but you get the point. I've always been the one that makes friends with the ones everyone turns away... I'm the one that rbings a less fortunate friend to christmas dinner... thats me.

Anyway.... I've blabbed enough about all that.... theres just one last thing I'd like to point out before I go...

There is a feature on my blog called "anonymous comments" (yep I prolly spelled that wrong) Anyway... all yougotta do is click to make a comment at the end of the post... type your comment in the box and check the circle for anon. comments. Submit and viola... you'r opinions are right out there and no one knows who it was. =)

There are so many of you out there that I truley love. You are my friends, and I haven't been on here much lately so I've missed a lot of conversations, but I do think of you and I'll be back once everythings in order. =)

I also have details on our benefit concert to update about tomorrow. It's coming along so much better that I could have ever imagined. It's going to have to be a 2 night thing to accomodate all the bands that want to help. Yay!