An email

I got an email from a friend of mine today. It was one of those survery type things but it only had two questions and you were supposed to answer it and forward it on. I thought it would be an interesting thing to blog about.

Question 1. What does life mean to you?

To me, Life means being happy. You have to find a way to learn to deal with the things that come your way, no matter how big or small those things are. If you can't figure out how to deal, then you're going to waste your life being pissed off or depressed all the time, and both are silly. Things happen of course, like deaths and divorce and whatever that knock you down for awhile but if you don't learn how to go on then you're life is meaningless anyway. I have had bad thing after bad thing happen to me in my time, and if I didn't learn to handle them and get over it then I probably wouldn't be here today. Every day I'm faced with something that could make me sad or pissed off, but at the same time, every day I get to see my daughter and my husband and that makes anything bad just disappear. I know I blog about Mikayla a lot but thats just because I can't describe or say enough how happy she makes me. If I'm upset, alll I need is a hug from her and I'm all better. She's awesome.

Question 2: Who has been the most influential person in your life?

Now, in all fairness, I dn't think I can pick just one person for this question. I guess, during my childhood and teenage years, my mom was my biggest influence. She's always been the type of mommy that would talk to me about anything I needed to talk about. Even when it was things like drugs or sex, things that scare mommy's lol. She never yelled at me for asking, she never tried to convince me not to do them, she would just explain to me what she knew and tell me that I had to experiment (safley) and make my own conclusions. I really like that philosophy. I know not a lot of people I know will agree with some of the ways I plan on raising Mik, but who cares? she's mine and I'll screw her up if I wanna hehe, no for real though, I turned out just fine so I plan on using everything my mom taught me about life, and applying that to my own parenting techniques.
Now, here in the last few years, Sean has been a big influence on my adultlife. Together we've taught each other what it is to be responsible adults, and when we had Mik, we learned together what it was to be parents too. You never will know the closeness you can feel with your spouse until you discuss together how you're going to handle a particular topic with your children. And the day you give birth and it's just you, your husband and your first child in the room together, laying on that bed just gazing at your baby, thats indescribable also.
In the last 3 years, Mikayla has taught me more than I've ever learned in my life. She's taught me how to love through some really frustrating times, she's taught me what it's like to worry yourself sick over a slight fever, she's taught me what it's like to receive unselfish, unconditional, and immeasurable love from a tiny little person. So I guess, my family is really the most influential people in my life.
My friends sur ehave helped me through a ton of shit too though, can't leave them out. Manda has been my best friend for longer than anything. She's been there through some shit. Here lately, I've had problems to deal with that she doesn't understand fully so she hasn't been real sure of how to comfort me, and for a while this caused some problems. But I've realized that its not what's said that counts, it's the feelings you have for each other that really matter and I know she feels the same love for me that I feel for her. =) I've known Deena as long as I've known Manda but sometimes Deena just says the complete wrong things. But then again, Deena will do things like call and say are you having a bad day? I'm sorry, come on over I'll make you dinner or we can go for a walk or something so she has her really strong points. Her mouth just thinks faster than her brain does sometimes, but as you learn to love deena, you learn to overlook her too. Mark has been around for ever too, and when we were little, there was no one to me like Mark was. Me and Him had an awesome relationship. I remember night after night of sneaking out of our houses, just to lay in my back yard and watch the stars, he always had a facination with the stars. I miss times like that sometimes, but as you grow up, sadly you grow apart sometimes too, and it's nobodies fault, it's just a fact of life. Candace has been my friend longer than anyone. I love Candace like nothing else, but we hardly ever get to see each other. We live completly opposite lives, but we both still know that we'd be to each other in a heartbeat if the need arose.

So see, I can't name just one person, I have many, many who have touched me and helped to make me who I am today. It's great to have my life sometimes. But, in conclusion, I am the most influential person in my life. I got me through everything I've dealt with, I've taught myself to be a good mommy, I've taught myself to be a good wife, and I have taught myself to be a good friend. So thanks me. =)