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I have something I need to talk about. It's something that Sean and I have decided to do I think, but it's kinda strange to just snnounc to everyone like this. Now, just because we've decided to do it doesn't mean that we're the ones that'll get picked to do it, that part isn't up to us. BUT, our name is in the bag.
Anyway, we were contacted by a lesbian couple about a month ago. They want to have a baby and need a sperm donor. They require, which is fine with Sean, that we both sign off any parental rights we might have over the possible baby, and they don't want us to try to contact them. They do want to slightly keep in contact just n case the day ever comes where this child would want to know who their donor was ya know but until he/she actually asks, they won't tell them.
I know this is kinda strange, but at the same time it's awesome. Sean and I decided after Mik that we didn't want anymore, it's just too much of a risk to me and thats not worth it to me. I mean we'd love another child but only if I didn't have to have it myself lol.
There is compensation involved in this if we chose to accept it but the more we talk about it, the less we want to be paid for it. He just wants to help someone out that wants kids and can't have them on their own. No physical contact at all or anything like that, just skeet skeet in a cup a couple times a month till it takes. I think this is awesome though. You don't get opportunity's like this very often and most people would run the other direction but I got a good hunny that cares about others. =)
Speaking of my hunny, he's thinking of getting a job up where his friend works at. He used to LOVE his job but it's just turned into bullshit. The guy he works with is a friggin idiot and is always hitting on some girl or fucking around on his wife and it's really starting to get to Sean. I mean he's not whiny or anything but you can only see one person fuck around for so long before it starts to irritate you ya know. That, and he's never sure he'll get 40 hours, he's never sure what time he goes in or gets off, and theres no guarentee that they have work from week to week.. Put his crappy pay on top of all that and it just sucks. It'd be cool if he could get on with T though. He seems to really like working where he works... Kno what's funny? I really have no idea where he works, I kno the genral area where it is at cause I talked to his girl when she went to pick him up last night lol but I don't know the companys name or anything hehe.
I know this might sound selfish or whatever but I really really really wanna just stay home with Mik. Maybe not the rest of my life but until she starts school at least. My mom i sjust getting to where she can't keep her every day like sh eused to and I don't want to pay someone almost 200 a week to watch my kid when I'm perfectly capable of doing it myself for free ya know. IF I get to stay home though I'm gonna get some flash cards and such and start trying to teach her a few things during the days. I'd like to get her at elast reading small words and writing her name by kindergarten... thats not unreasonable is it?
Well, gotta run, once again I worte like 3 paragraphs and then deleted it.. it's becoming a habit... it sounds good in my head till I write it and then I'm like nah I'll just leave that alone lol. But Me and Amy are gonna take the kids to the zoo or the park or something and I hafta go pick them up so I gotta get me and the kiddo ready real quick. Tata